Unsure mind

So how do you feel when something you should have started over two weeks ago hasn’t started yet? Not only that but may not actually begin till the middle of May?

Lost? Confused? Anxious? All three and more? You bet. And it isn’t just affecting me but my nearest and dearest too. You may be able to sympathise with my dilemma.

During this lapsed period, it has affected me the most. The indecision is killing me, affecting my attitude and behaviour.

Ya know, a song that sums up my feelings would be “Should I Stay or Should I Go” by The Clash. Great risk and pressure would be on my family as it is not the best of times at the moment but do I remain unhappy till something better comes around?

During this time I need my family more than ever and I am blessed with such a loving partner, she keeps me sane even when I’d rather I wasn’t and my boys, they give me reason to fight so that I teach them to persevere in the face of adversity and those who would see me fall, to set the example of how they should behave not just as boys soon to be men but as human beings.

Hard thoughts have crossed my mind before in the past, words said and written in fear and anger but such is life, it was never meant to be simple was it? We play the hand we’re dealt with and just remember, even a lone high card can win the pot…

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Back to work :D

Well, that day is finally coming. Yes, you read that right, I have a job again!

To say it has been worrying and a little bit stressful, with all the waiting and hoping that I would again find employment sooner rather than later, is an understatement.

The last few weeks, I won’t lie, have been a bit manic. My wife, working all the hours under the sun to help keep the bills at bay and my children being on their summer holidays has kept me busy.

When I was still in employment last year, I had no idea how stressful the six weeks Summer period was for my wife…now I’ve experienced it first hand I never want to be in that situation again.

Counting day the days fills me a mixture of emotion: Caution, fear, joy, pride…but most importantly, determination. Why? I’m back in employment with a brand new employer, why wouldn’t I feel determind to do my best and prove myself 🙂

It all begins on the 2nd of October, make a note of it and cheer me on as I get back into the game 😀

Welcome to my humble abode

So, my first blog post. Not quite exactly sure what to say but I’ll try anything lol

What about a recent event, like a film showing or party? Let’s try a film…

The most recent film I have seen at the Cinema, cannot live without my movies ya know, was Valerian and the City of a Thousand Planets.

Now my opinion…I really liked, was a bit long mind and did get a bit confusing at times but it was a decent ride. Lovely visuals, you can’t say the crew didn’t pull out all the stops to make this film a beauty to marvel at. Both leads, Dane Dehaan and Cara Delevingne, do a fine job in my opinion, the chemistry between them very believable. Not many other well-known cast members in it bar Clive Owen and Ethan Hawke with also a very eye-pleasing contribution from Rihanna.

One thing I hope is they recoup the budget, it cost a flipping bomb to make and I think even though this was a pet project for director Luc Besson he may have his regrets it didn’t do better…or cost less for that matter.

Overall, I did enjoy it but it did have it’s problems. I’d recommend it.